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Sunday, April 28, 2013

Losing Myself

Hi friends!  I hope you're having a wonderful day!  Today, I'm writing to share a photo of my kiddos and my random musings.  I haven't been creating much or blogging much.


This is a photo from our recent photo shoot with Stacey at Elevens Photography.  It was so nice to have professional pictures taken.  I love the way photographers can capture my kids!  They do not pose this well for me.  This is Avery's first photo pro photo shoot.  She wasn't too thrilled but I still love the pictures of her!

Now, onto my lack of creativity and blogging.  I'm not sure how many of you know, but Avery is the last baby we are planning to have.  My pregnancy was really hard.  I started contracting at 33 weeks and was told to take it easy.  Later, I found out that my pregnancy was considered high risk because I had placenta issues with both my boys.  After I had Avery, healing was really hard.  I was exhausted all the time and bled for months.  I ended up having to take a couple medications to stop the bleeding.  Overall, it was enough to make me not want to get pregnant again.

But every single struggle was worth it.  Avery is the sweetest, cutest, most darling baby girl in the world and I could not love her anymore if I tried.  However, it's been a challenge to want to do anything else when she's around.  I just want to hold her, look into her eyes, coo at her, and spend as much time with her as I can because babies grow up SO fast.  

Where does that leave my role as a cardmaker?  This is one of the words I use to identify myself.  When I go to CHA or meet new crafters, I tell them that I'm a cardmaker.  That's what I do.  And yet it's been months since I've made a card.  I miss it dearly.  I miss crafting, I miss submitting, I miss doing challenges, etc...  I love looking at other people's cards, I love looking at new product, and buying new product.  But yet, I can't manage to make anything.  I also miss doing Project Life, memory keeping for my family.  

So, how do you find balance?  I guess someday I'll figure it out.  But until then, I'll just feel like a piece of myself is on the back burner.  

6 comments:

  1. Once a cardmaker...always a cardmaker, things have just shifted for you for the time being. Enjoy life and go with the flow....

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  2. What handsome boys and sweet little girl...great photo of them all! I totally know how you feel. Our 3rd is our last and I think knowing how fast it can go and knowing this is the last baby makes you really want to try to enjoy every minute especially since you get less 1:1 time with baby with 2 other kiddos in the house. It took me 9 months before I started feeling like crafting/finding time for it. I'm sure you will get back to it eventually and probably with renewed joy and inspiration too! Take care!

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  3. Sometimes you have to not make a card because there is an adorable baby waiting to play with you. That's just how it is. We all understand! Cardmaking comes back with sleep.

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  4. You find that family balance and the life balance will come :) Take heart, your creative soul won't let you abandon the craft for long! HUGS. Your kids are DARLING!

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  5. Beautiful children. Cards will always be around, the supplies won't ruin. Enjoy the baby and your boys while they are little. That goes too fast.

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  6. Gorgeous photo! Enjoy Avery and every moment you have with her! It goes too fast! The papers will be there always!

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